This has been a major challenge for me during my journey…how to truly let go, be at peace and trust that everything will be ok in the end. I recently found a saying “Everything will be OK in the end. If it’s not OK, it’s not the end.”
These words have given me comfort, especially during the last leg of my journey in growing back my hair. I know this is not my life forever – it will pass and one day I will look like ME again. The funny thing is that life will never be the same again. It’s changed me in many ways but in every way for the better. No longer do I worry about the small things in life that once bugged me.
I remember in past years, not wanting to swim at the beach and get my hair wet, because I didn’t want to wash it. Sounds crazy, hey. Not thinking of the amazing feeling splashing through the waves, plus the fun that I’d be having with my kids and the healing effects of salt water on my skin.
On a recent trip to Bali, with absolutely no hair, I sat on the sand watching all my family and friends in the water, carefree and having the time of their lives, just wising that could be me. I could have easily gone in but I didn’t want to go in the water in front of everyone and have people staring at my bald head. We are planning another trip back to Bali this year and I cannot wait to be out there in those waves, feeling happy and free.
During a beachwalk a month ago, I stood and looked at the water and the waves and decided that is what I needed to do – just dive into the ocean and feel free. So that’s just what I did and it felt amazing. I cannot believe after all these years, it took me to lose the hair on my entire body for me to enjoy something so simple. Now, most nights after dinner, my husband Roy and my kids head down to the beach and enjoy a swim together. It’s become a treat and something we all look forward to.
I also make sure I go on regular beach walks, as this helps to ground me and I feel at home walking on the sand – another thing that I never did and we have the beach right at the end of our street. Now, it’s something that I can’t wait to do in the morning. Walking barefoot on sand is also really good for inflammation, which I had a lot of in my body and I think my walks have really helped in reducing it. Beach walking also gives me time to truly be grateful for living in such a beautiful part of the world. Sometimes I take the kids with me and we know where all the good rock pools are that carry the most colourful starfish, which rock pools have the largest shells laying around and what time of day is the best to see both of these. We have three huge glass jars full of the shells we have collected on our walks and I smile every time I look at them and think of our adventures.
Another favourite thing I like to do, is just sit outside in the sun and just look and listen… listen to all the sounds around me, like birds singing in the trees or flying past, the wind blowing the hedges, watching the clouds and just being grateful for everything. Never before did I stop and just say, thank you for my amazing life and have such gratitude. Now I do.
I’ve learn’t to just breathe… breathe so that you can feel your belly moving up and down – deep breathing so that it is all you focus on. If I ever have some emotions coming up that I’m having trouble letting go of, I find a quiet place, normally my bedroom, lay down and just BREATHE.
Working through my emotions has been hard at times and quite often it’s something that I have needed help with. I regularly see a beautiful lady, Jeannine Verriest from http://www.essencepower.com.au, who helps keep me in balance. Jeannine works with your energy field and helps to remove barriers, limiting beliefs, sabotages in our lives that may arise through the environment, other people, and emotional stresses. She has become my life coach, friend and I really look forward to each visit.
Jeannine has put me in touch with my “inner self” and helped me be the best person I can possibly be. Each visit, she re-balances and re-aligns my energy field. I still don’t quite understand how she does this and how she knows what emotions are coming up for me before my visit, who I’m carrying energy for and what needs balancing. All I know is, that it works 100% and she has given me a whole new insight into myself that I had no idea even existed.
I have never been this in-tune with my body and it’s a great feeling. Don’t get me wrong, I still have everyday frustrations like running around crazy with the kids, gritting my teeth when my 4 year old won’t clean up his mess or when our cheeky miniature dachshund Hope won’t stop barking at everyone who walks by our home, but I am much calmer, happier and at peace. So much more so, than when I had all my hair. I wouldn’t have dared to believe losing my hair would turn into such an amazing learning experience. THANK YOU…
Here are some more phrases that I saved along the way –
- Be proud of yourself for how hard you’re trying.
- Don’t compare your life to others and don’t judge them, you have no idea what their journey is about.
- No-one is in charge of your happiness, except YOU.
- You did not come this far to walk away without the victory.
- You get to say what happens next.
- Everything is exactly the way it’s supposed to be.